Tag: kanel-yapping

Waking up to 30+ inbox messages

Just saw the info on artists getting unrightfully banned and people on my discord server filled me in a bit. (Bot made to remove bots, but ended up removing some artists and some well-known faces) Lots of artists doing the safe measure of linking their other platforms. I’ll be doing the same in another post.

/eh/
Come on Tumblr.

I enjoy the site personally because unlike most places it makes a good fit for a gallery. (That you can completely adjust, reshape and repurpose for your own needs) Even things like Uploading in Sets, Tags, search, links, filtering out the specific things you DON’t want to see is nice as hell. (And a bunch of other junk that’s far more convenient than many alternatives, such as Twitter and the out-dated to hell HF. at least for my own purposes)

But damn, it’s feeling more and more obsolete as a site.
Especially if you’re pushing away the artists who were already somewhat on the fence on jumping ship to go somewhere else. (Wiping a portion or a majority of their fanbase would do that..Now having to go through the process of hopefully getting their accounts returned to what they were before their accounts were even banned)

Honestly, somewhat can’t wait for the next site that’s a great gallery and personal space. Hopefully, something shows up in 2019 or 2020 that’s down and cool with adult content as well. (and less bugs/mistakes)

It’s been over a decade.
It’s about that time anyway.

year older

Even though I haven’t said anything or don’t usually. Thank you kindly for the birthday wishes. (slightly odd seeing some of em on Anon @_@??? )

Still, thanks! I appreciate it!

Didn’t go drinking or out to eat somewhere I haven’t been like planned to just treat myself. Got a banging headache and mostly slept through it. ~_~ Probably do something this or next weekend to just chill out away from the house/PC.

yo, can’t say I care for worlds this year.

But fck, the song Rise is so good.
Been working to that on repeat all night.
(The music vid itself is pretty sweet and fun to look at visually! Definitely a top from Riot in a while, right next to or above Warriors from 2014 worlds IMO)

Ask some junk.

-Still got to finish a few more pieces and commissions before i start uploading again. (Kinda want to keep things in a bit of order for the sake of my OCD, but sitting on enough pieces that could last for weeks.)

-Don’t feel like streaming again today (at least not right now) folks sucked up my energy to do that shit. Feeling pretty tilted.

Ask some questions.
I got some time to kill in between either trying to draw ,watching videos or whatever else to counter this mood.

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Tiddy + Colored Sketches Soon

Back to posting the usual tiddy/nsfw here shortly. (Having a bit of fun, don’t mind me!) 

And slight heads up..
I do WANT to open up the Colored Sketch form for September this week. (Didn’t open the forms for July or August)

But that all depends if I can finish off these last few sketches before opening. (So if it’s not this week, it’ll be next week Monday the 24th, more likely)

So if you’ve been waiting on the form to open again. keep eyes out for it this week. @_@/

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(Got this ask before the post from today but didn’t get to respond to these the other day because I was streaming.)

My specific issue was that my income was cut by almost half for the past 10 months. (30% percent)

At the volume I usually did and needed to take to still cover my expenses, rent and provide refunds, THAT was a pretty big deal. (It was never meant to be a problem, but I slipped up.)

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But I do get what you mean about creating content that can continue to be bought waaaay after it’s been finished. (a decent foundation/something to fall back on, outside of commission work & patreon.)

That is my plan alongside uping the content quality and wanting to do my own stuff. (Hell i jokingly said i’d like to make a smolder butt mouse pad/shirt someday. But i kinda meant that.)

I wish to do mostly comics that I can put on the side. ($1 – $4 a completed comic or even an image pack of set characters.)

Though you may be overestimating the willingness of those that would ACTUALLY buy it or even like it enough to support. (Basically: just because X amount of people likes something, doesn’t mean the same amount of X people or even close to that amount will buy the content.)

I don’t know yet how well these things will do when they are done. 
Considering I have yet to / hardly finished any to completion or even test those waters. (The closest things would be the recent comm for Ken and the Smolder short comic a long while back.)

I still don’t know the full scope of the audience I have / will have that enjoy the work enough to willing support it AND buy it.

BUT it is still something i want to and plan to give a shot. A proper shot.

I have both a Gumroad and E-junkie accounts already registered for months now so I’ll have places to sell content eventually.

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When I get to it and ACTUALLY get to it.
I’ll be set.

About the last post

Being a tad more clear.

I am NOT going on a hiatus.

I mostly stated how I’m doing, that If I’m even more silent/stranger than usual you will now know why and I am doing what I can/must to avoid any chance of another unintentional Hiatus.

I’m still working. (Should make a clear as well, getting larger/more expensive commissions off my plate right now.)

(Honestly feeling slightly better after doing a few dumb things. The truck still needs a proper fix/I need to get out more. But I’m alright-ish. Still gonna be rather quiet for a bit longer.)

Images will continue to be posted up like normal when they are done.

Not a break. (ramble)

This isn’t much but a whine/slight heads up post?

Once I get my truck fixed up. (Haven’t gotten none of the basic tune-ups for it and it’s almost been a year. + window is fucked still.)

I need to step out for a while, like from my place for a bit or find some other way to just throw some of this weight off my shoulders and ease myself up.

Trying to be social and participate in things hasn’t really helped. (at least not the ways I tried) It just leads to being more silently irritated at others and mostly myself. (Folks do nothing wrong most of the time, I am just straight up too easily put off as of lately.)

Being indecisive on about every little thing I do as of late and worrying about what choices I’m making/will have to make eventually. Has got me just. not moving at all or shutting down entirely. (sleeping almost an entire day away, meaninglessly going through social media, trying to draw and just quitting 20-30mins into it.)

Top that off with feeling extremely dissatisfied with my work quality, trust issues, social anxiety, but ACTUALLY wanting to talk, putting a foot forward, attempting and being disappointed later for even bothering. Having nice one on one or small calls, but then mood just dropping drastically barely an hour later after leaving said calls. It’s a cluster fuck of emotional instability.

I don’t know what’s up (Actually, I feel like do! I’m just fairly impatient, but even as an introvert even I have my own limits when it comes to sticking to myself for too long.) 

But I need a breather before I pop. (Last time I did a post like this after moving, I tried working through it, streaming, groups and it quite literally made shit far worse.)

I would like to avoid another unintentional hiatus considering that March-May has actually been pretty decent, productivity-wise and how active the blog has been in comparison to like other months/times I took long ass 4-6 month hiatus from a lot of places at once. These last few months have been the most active and consistent I’ve been for a long time now. Possibly the most on this blog entirely. Though not exactly pushing out my proudest work of all time, far from it. The productivity while still feeling pretty /content/ with some of the quality, It felt really REALLY nice. (Not drawing or posting for two-three days, felt like I haven’t done anything for weeks. It was a good art itch.)

I apologize IF I go back to being extremely silent for a while here and a lot of places. Artwork will still go up like normal. (Won’t be reblogging much, answering asks and somewhat want to stop posting commission on this blog. But on the plus side, looking at least +40 images to be posted for June. so that’s a plus.)

I may just post up here again like none of that word vomit spewed above even mattered in like a week or few days. Who knows.

Just a minor heads up, if I’m just like dead silent or being stranger than usual.

Why not do that then?

Commission & project backlog (to the point 80% of the content that needs to be finished up and are in my art folders is not my own. Folks have been beyond words tolerant with me. I owe them immensely for that so my priorities are mostly set on their promised work. Besides the sometimes quickly done sloppy doodles I post here, private gifts for friends/mutuals and sometimes patreon. I do not draw as much as I would like or close to the amount of my peers/fellow artists I respect a ton.) + priorities and wanting to get better at comics, structure, and art in general beforehand.

(Pretty much a repeat/echo of things I’ve said probably 20 times or more by now. I apologize. Honestly lost count and probably shouldn’t vocally say anything about it. It’ll pass and things are getting taken care of. I’ll find the time. I’m just feeling as of late fairly IMPATIENT and would like to have my attention/efforts used on ONE major thing or several that are mine. instead of a buttload others that aren’t 100% my own.)

Not saying I won’t attempt small stuff in my spare time or I’m not trying to even if it’s really minor stuff or really really bad right now. It’s just not at the pace, scale, quality I want or things I’m feeling at all satisfied with.