(Feel free to ignore this, everything below is just moaning and will just be deleted later. Art will be going up later this week and so will the Sketch-Form for October this weekend finally.)
Stream is done.
Gonna sound a bit bitter here. (I apologize immensely)
Slightly annoyed.
Stream today was a bit of a reminder of some social pet peeves and junk I already moaned about. I really need to start hammering down on annoying shit immediately, even though chats are mostly harmless as hell. honestly, they are. Most of the time no one is toxic or being a legitimate ass. Even the occasional stuff: uwu -> TMI or unnecessary comments -> [insert-constant-memes] are never really enough to really make me want to stop streaming for that day. It just gets tiring.
So I tend not to heavily police my own chats and stick to just working. But just letting things get out of hand, just attracts more of it and pushes away the kind of people I DO want to attract. I don’t like that, because it tends to stick around for a while, rearing itself into any other streams I do (And I don’t like knowing folks think i’m okay with certain conversations, behaviors or that chat speaks FOR me.) and honestly feeling uncomfortable in my own streams is pretty annoying as shit. Happens far too much and I’m getting pretty sick of it. But I don’t know the best course to take other than what I’ve always done; ignore it and just keep working. (It’s harmless after all I guess.)
I really need to get better at socializing or /grow/ a better personality. Like, way faster than whatever the hell I’m doing currently. Would be great to actually often attract those I can actually have something in common with or legitimately find interesting.
You know, like just stepping up because YOU choose to get to know that someone or a group because what they do, who that someone is as a PERSON actually interests you or the kind of atmosphere they give off IS something you can vibe with. So that eventually more of those kinds of people show up or those types conversations happen more often. And not the types of people or conversations that happens because someone approached you and you didn’t ever shoo them away because you didn’t want to be a cunt even when they sometimes or very often do/say things you dislike immensely without realizing they should really stop after the two or three times they do it.
Gonna delete this later, but damn. It’s a small thing, but when it happens so often. It kinda builds up and reaches that level of “Yeah, no. Can you stop that or leave. =/ ”
I shouldn’t be getting annoyed at streaming. One of the few things I LIKE DOING.
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